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omg i am so freaking emo i don't know why so horrible i feel like i want to die-.- i hate being emo gahhhhhhh really sucks i feel like, i have no social life i mean it's like im like hardly caring about any social life anymore and yet i feel so alone and gosh what's happening to me im in bad mood all the time, my parent's kill my mood even more everyday, i get pissed at everything and im so sick and tired of life it's like a whole big horrid cycle everyday, you wake up early go to school so tired and dying and go home and by the time you get to start work it's 9pm and you study and study and study feeling depressed and stressed that you cant do your work ESP MATH and then you sleep so freaking late and you go to school and die in school again, feel so miserable everyday, no happiness at all it's all so torturous omg argh so miserable

and actually, i guess im not even trying in social aspects anymore because everytime i try, it would make the person hate me, like it did in the case of him and her, so im so sick and tired of it i dont want to waste any more effort also im so tired whats the point when you try so hard and get negative results
plus no one actually cares anyway. everyone hates me